Well since the last time i wrote alot has changed and gone on. On December 19th,2007 at 9:24am i gave birth to a beautiful boy named Caden Daniel. I had a hard labor and it ended in c-section but as soon as i heard his cry all i could do was smile and cry myself. He was healthy and a good looking baby. I know i was so excited everything went well and no problems were brought along. I know this an important day because i was giving birth to a beautiful boy to be raised by the best parents that there could ever be.. Josh and Heidi. I remember waking up in the hospital room seeing my room full of people and there Caden was just being taken care of while i was recovering and then i saw Josh and Heidi walk in the room and that made my day. I was so ready for them to be there and couldnt wait because knew their long drive was over and i had a son to give to them. They mean so much to me and i can never say thank you enough to them for everything they have done for me and they are the bestthings in my life besides caden. I have told them several times that Caden was meant to be their son. While staying in the hospital i felt alot better knowing that they were there with me and it meant alot to me for them to be there with me as well. I know at the end of the pregnancy i kept them posted and at the hospital i made sure my brother or dad called them to tell them the new things the doctor had said. When i left the hospital i was so glad that i was still able to spend the next week with Josh, Heidi, and Caden. I spent alot of time with them and it meant alot to me. I was always making sure they were alright and just wanted them to feel at home because my house will always be their house as well. So after they were able to go home when the paperwork was finished i know that was the hardest day because i knew that they werent going to be home when i got home but i knew they had a home and everything was going to be alright there. i knew that Caden was in good hands and that has never been a concern to me. I want the best for Caden and i gave him the best he could ask for. I know he will understand one day the great blessings he is getting. I know ive been doing alright and people have been real supportive and that has helped through the whole process. There are times when i hear a song or look at his pictures again and i get emotional but all i do is think of the good things ive done and it helps lift my spirit. I know itsa hard decision to make in life but it takes a strong mother with lots of love to do it. All the birthmothers that have done this just like me are so strong and i give a hug to all of those going through what i am going through. its not easy to do at all but its comfort that will help you move on. I know when i go back to school that Caden is my motivation for meto do good in life because i want him to see all the good things ive done. I want him to be proud of me. I want Josh and Heidi to know i love them so much and i just cant ever thank them enough. Thats just a fewthoughts on my mind for this past month and i wanted to give an update since its been a while.
